You couldn't be that man I adored－不完美的呻吟

Torn - Natalie Imbruglia

最近又開始狂聽這首歌

1997 (或1998年?) 那時,擁有了一台CD隨身聽

這張專輯就是我買的第一張CD啊!!! (遠目~)

當時,我好愛Natalie (當然,現在也是愛)

每首歌都好聽, 也買了她每張專輯

在那個連零用錢都難拿到要自殘的學生時代裡

也就好只省吃檢用把午餐錢省錢來買CD...

雖然英文一直沒啥長進

就算聽了那麼久的英文歌

不過,倒是現在才懂得她唱出的意思啊...

Illusion never changed into something real

當時的我想成為什麼樣的人想過著什麼樣的生活

好像也不那麼重要了

總是看著那句"最初的夢想"

但其實心裡覺得... 也不過最後會被磨成一粒沙罷了

然後卡在你眼角

想起便淚直流

又或者當初的我根本也沒想到那麼久遠

也或許當初的我早就知道現想和現實之間的相斥性

當你想用盡一切的辦法去證明自己的信念或堅持自己的夢想

勢必得傷害一路相伴或總是照顧你的人

根本甭想有個兩全其美大家都好過的方法

也不過就是自私罷了

I'm all out of faith

好吧! 我承認識總是對著人生充滿質疑

的確是沒什麼好令人相信或執著的

隨便一點將就一點又如何

或許別人也是在將就於你

或許你也是別人的隨便啊

哈哈哈哈哈... 想到這裡也覺得好笑了起來

你在選別人時,其實別人也在選你耶

好個相對論 (?)

總之

原來我從以前就對短髮女有著小偏好啊

(絕不是受某兩人影響!!!)

I thought I saw a man brought to life

He was warm, he came around like he was dignified

He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored

You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for

But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie

My conversation has run dry

That's whats going on, nothing's fine I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right

Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light

To crawl beneath my veins and now

I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much

There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn

There's nothing where he used to lie

My inspiration has run dry

That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor

You're a little late, I'm already torn.